A Good Change?

IT’S BEEN A VERY TIRING YEAR, emotionally, thanks to a couple of relationships, as well due to the seemingly endless merry-go-round that is online dating. 

Somehow, though, the last four months or so, something has changed for me. I went from not being able to be alone to…maybe not preferring it, but accepting it. And, expecting it. And, enjoying it.

I went from feeling too much to not feeling anything anymore, and I’m getting used to it. I’ve found its better to be immune to everything and just let things be, and go. I no longer feel much beyond sanguine about finding someone and, finally, don’t feel much more than that about different people in the past who no longer have any interest in me. What’s the point in feeling anything, especially feeling remorse or sadness, about the past or people in the past anymore? Those people not feeling the same as I do should have been motivation for me not to, but I had to take a slower, different path to where I am today. It all feels o.k., but is it o.k.?

 

Advertisements

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s